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Sunday, April 24, 2011

Haven't I had enough stress?

Bad news, recently my hotmail account got hacked.. and sadly they don't allow me to change email address for my blog, so I have to stick to that hacked email address if I want to login... oh well what to do? I seriously have no idea...  Wrong timing to get hacked at this time.. Quite stress out with my studies lately, 2 assignments to be completed, in which I had barely started on one of the assignments.. Lately, relationship issue was also getting into my way . and yet trying to keep up to my diet program seems to just go down the drain.. just face it, things aren't doing so well for me right now.. I just wished he'd understand what I've been going through,instead of playing tricks with my mind... Is it that fun to just say somethings that will hurt people, and after that when you ask, hey what's up with all that, whats wrong, and the reply you get was just a =).. Hadn't he realized that he's been hurting me deeply by just doing that? It  had just left me quite some thoughts to think about..I just know that, things seems to change a bit lately between us, but I just kept it inside of me.. 

My msn list is now very empty, but yet, it made me realized that, I actually didn't chat with much people on my previous msn.. Its like, you may have a list of 150-200 people on your msn, but how many of them in your list, that you had actually kept in touch with..
                            Just feeling down, down and really down..
Lonely, lonely me..

Sunday, April 10, 2011

In Love With You =)

Just a gentle whisper, tell
me that you'd gone
Leaving only memories,
where did we go wrong?
I couldn't find the words then,
so let me say them now
I'm still in love with you

Tell me that you love me,
tell me that you care
Tell me that you need me,
and I'll be there
I'll be there waiting...

I will always love you, I
will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like I do
Come to me now
I will never leave you, I will
stay here with you
Through the good and bad I will stand true
I'm in love with you

Now we're here together,
yesterday has past
Life is just beginning,
close to you at last
And I promise to you, I
will always be there
I give my all to you

Living life without you is
more that I can bear
Hold me close forever,
I'll be there...
I'll be there for you

I will always love you, I
will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like I do
This I promise...
I will never leave you, I will
stand here with you
Through the good and bad I will stand true
Hold me closer...
Our love is forever, holding us together
Nothing in this world can stop us now

Love has found
Love has found a way ...

I'm in love, I'm in love

Yes I'm in love, so in love
I'm so in love with you....

Sunday, April 3, 2011

There are always failures in life..

It's been several months since I last blog while I was in Brunei.. And now I'm finally back to Perth to continue on my 2nd last semester.. Won’t be going into so much detail about what I’ve been doing for the past few months, so I’ll just roughly talk about the not so boring part.. =)

Hmmm I just got my iphone 4 not long ago =D (yay!).. Have been playing with it a lot lately, too many games to play le >.< recently have been addicted to pretty pet salon and bakery story >.<!!  Next is, I’ve finally started taking some driving lessons here, and I’d never expected that the rules here are so much harder, or rather a lot to follow, compared to the rules in Brunei.. First few lessons I struggled a little, coz there were some bad habits which I needed time to get rid of..After the 2nd lesson, things started to get a little bit better.. 

Overall I took 4 lessons, and I finally went for my first driving test today..  The sad thing to say is that I’ve failed my test.. Couldn’t hold it any longer, I just burst into tears when my instructor told me the result.. Couldn’t be more disappointed in myself, coz the silly mistake which had caused me to fail, was driving too slowly.. it’s stupid to know that I don’t normally drive very slowly, I usually keep up to the speed limit.. but I guess coz I was nervous, so i did stupid things during the test.. the ang mo instructor was also kinda scaring me tho.. But anyways, that won’t stop me from going for a 2nd attempt on the driving test.. Although it’s very expensive, but I guess going for a 2nd try won’t hurt.. I might even pass, after learning from my mistakes.. Maybe? 

Going to have my 1st mid semester test soon, this coming Monday.. Hopefully I’ll be able to remember everything that I’ve studied.. Too many theories!!! The good thing is that I’ve already done one presentation for Acct Dec Analysis unit and quite happy with the result.. So ok left only 2 more assignments to be done.. I know it’s stupid to say that every time I start the new semester, I’ll always tell myself that I’ll work extra hard!! But in the end I still fall behind.. What’s left to do, is to make use of the time while I still can, and make the best out of it.. ok enough talk and no actions! Will blog more when I feel like ^^ TC to whoever reads my blog.. lolx =D

                                                                                        Signing off<3

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Time will heal everything..

My mind is really empty right now.. and I've fallen ill due to lack of sleep.. not to mention, emotional breakdown.. What happens in reality matter the most, and I know that I've still got you by my side..

Enjoy listening to it guys.. Cinderella stepsister is a really nice korean drama.. =)
Song sang by Yesung-It has to be you..

Friday, January 14, 2011


Am bored, so just feel like blogging today~ Updates on what I have been up to for the past few weeks? =D Last week, 2 days str8 went to ICC for the Consumer's fair 2010.. haven't been to these kind of fairs for long time le.. hehe and this time get to go with deardear XD 1st day just went to have a look around at what they're selling there.. many flat screen tv's in which deardear was very interested at.. hehe.. then stop by to look at one skin care product called Kawaii Tokyo? Dear's mum have been using it, and he say it was not bad.. the sales lady kept promoting the products to us, buy 80dollars and above will get a free butterfly swarovski-like pendant.. really pretty! but couldn't afford to spend 80dollars on the products.. =( I like their face water spray tho.. was really refreshing, and so 2nd day dear and I went to get it lor.. haha then happened to saw the "Amazing shammy" guy from the Perth's Royal Show.. Surprisingly they sell it a bit cheaper here, by $3? 

After those 2 nights, didn't had time to go out with Dear le, since he's been so bz and going out at night on the weekdays would really make him feel even more tired.. Going back this 25th Feb, really hope that we could spend more time together.. I miss him =(

 Just recently make fruit swiss roll by trying out my new oven XD.. result was satisfying! fluffy fluffy arh! hehe will make again, maybe tmr, this time will be Durian swiss roll! hehe I've already bought some durian le, smells really goooodd! then will make some other flavours to let my sis's colleagues to try out.. hope i can make some $$ by then .. heheh can't wait to spend some time with Dear tmr, will go get some icey cereeeaamm! hehe k sianz! go play some maple now >< nitex guys ^^

Just found out, LOL=Lots of Love.. lolx cute ei?
Signing off~<3

Sunday, December 26, 2010

I'm Back~

OMG! Haven't blog for such a loooooonnnngggggg time le! Just gonna update the blog a little with what I've been doing since I was back in Brunei.. ^^ Hmm, lemme think what I've did for the past few weeks.. Went to Miri with Mummy, sis and Dear + mummy's colleagues on a bus.. was okok, shops were also normal, not much changes actually and Miri was very hot indeed.. hmm after that day, went to Dear's place at least once a week to have lunch at his place and to see him ^^ Rarely had time to go out at night with dear as well, so could only see him in the afternoon, since he had already made plans to go gym on the weekdays.. Dec 18th, Dear's birthday + our 1yr anniversary.. din actually get to spend bday with him this year, oh well's there is always next year.. Decided to move our anniversary to 19th instead of 18th, since we felt that both events don't really go well at the same day ><! 

hehe the exciting part now =D.. Dear had actually surprised me by treating me to Thaan's spa >< he booked an aromatic massage for me, knowing that I've been really stressed out lately and tired, hehe, and he had actually planned on passing a bouquet of roses which was meant to be given to me after the massage.. He had really touched my heart this anniversary, coz I had never expected that he would do something like that romantic.. hehe love you baby! <3 the roses were beautiful, as always, hehe..After that, went to Dear's place to have dinner and to meet his cousins, had really enjoyed myself, coz I could also get to see his very naughty + cute cute nephew once again XD.. Have been going to tasek  a lot lately with mummy and sis, felt really good haha, but was really tiring, had to wake up at 6+ coz mummy don't like the morning sun ><! Must go more often again nxt week to exercise! Must have determination and motivation!

Xmas eve, went to have dinner with mum and sis at Cheezbox, food were not bad actually, had a lot of the salmon, hehehe tasted good ^^ Then it was erm xmas day hehe.. went to Empire again with Dear to have dinner, surprisingly, the place wasn't full, the food was also not bad, but Dear and I were feeling bloated already.. Nbt had put up another beautiful Xmas decoration again.. Empire however was bit of a let down this year.. quite plain, though, but they do have snow display this year.. ^^ Another year is about to pass again.. 31st is coming soon =D Hope you guys have enjoyed your Xmas this year, and early Happy New year guys! ^^ 

Signing off~<3

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Happy again =)

Went out for lunch with Dear today, was happy to see him again.. =) things were rough the other night, but for us, the next day will always be a better day.. What sis had said was true.. once your partner start's working, things would be different.. unlike before where they're not working, you can just see them whenever you want or feel like.. but since now he started work already, time was limited for us, yet precious as well.. 

Happy that Dear has agreed to go Miri with mum and sis this Sunday, although he had told me that he isn't used to sitting on the bus for long hours, he finally had agreed to go with me.. really appreciate that Dear, <3 u ! Going with mum's colleagues, full of filipino >.< and hopefully it'll be a good day on Sunday =)  Can't wait for tonight again.. hehe will be going over to Dear's place to watch movie! hehe kae that's it for today <3 Btw, glad Dear likes the shirt that I bought for you from Perth.. hehe I'm good in buying shirt for you right? =p perfect fit always hehehe ~ Nitex guys~ 

*I guess somethings are meant to be kept private, so I'm not gonna expose so much of my relationship issues... don't get me wrong with my last post, my Dear actually loved me a lot, a lot =)  so he is not a bad or mean Dear at all =)*

Love u babe <3
Signing off ^^

Friday, December 3, 2010

What's love to you?

Different people have different perspective about what love is to them.. some may say that, oh its that strong feeling/connection and bond they have for their partner, or simply its just all about these 3 words, I love you and you love me.. There's just so much going through my mind, and I really just don't know how to put them into words.. but one thing I know for sure, once I start bursting into tears and screaming my lungs out, they'll all flow out like musical notes..  kae maybe not musical notes... but yea you get my point.. I have many dreams on my mind, not forgotten after I've thought of new ones, but these dreams just accumulate in my mind, that someday I could be able to do everything that I want to do with my beloved Dear... I once said before, there's no point in forcing someone into doing something which they don't like, because from that, you really can't feel that willingness in them and that happiness and excitement coming from them.. but somehow, I really wished that he could ignore that certain thing which he din like to do, but for the sake of my happiness and that togetherness in our relationship, he is willing to sacrifice for me.. I may sound very demanding, but that's just how I feel,that giving in is not all about a 1 person show here, as love = a pair = both willing to give in when the time is right and needed... 

You may ask perhaps, what about what he wants? I know that I had gave in a lot in our relationship in the past, I was willing to ignore my feelings of disappointment that I couldn't always get what I wanted, but I was willing to give up and let it pass me by.. thinking that the future has yet better things to come.. I know he has also done a lot for me, for I will always remember every single things he had done for me.. I just returned ytdy evening, was really very excited and happy to finally get to spend time with my dear, after not being able to see him for 4months.. I really had miss him a lot. Things didn't feel the same for the passed few days, probably coz I was busy and tired, and he was too, and so conversations wasn't quite as much as before.. He's been busy working hard earning money, and yes I do know that money isn't hard to earn at all.. but if I were to ask, is the money worth spending it with the ones you love, tho it was a really crappy dinner perhaps or a movie, was it worth wasting it on the time spend with you and your loved ones? To me quite worth it to a certain extend, not saying the whole thing cost over hundreds and hundreds of dollars.. 

Trying to erase the enviousness I had for some people, where their relationship just seemed so smooth, both parents were able to accept them couples, seeing the time they had spending together with family members during gatherings.. really is just something I had wished for.. but I know when the time is right, our parents will finally let us go and walk our own path with the person we loved.. and I'm still waiting for that special day..  still holding unto my relationship strong, till I could finally experience that day... K Really have no intention on pressuring my Dear with fulfilling all my wishes, what I just want from him, is to love me with all his heart, to try to make me happy as I will always try to do the same, hopefully willing to give in more to me, and tho having to go on a crappy trip with me, is happy to go for the sake of spending time with me.. I really love you dear, yea we can take things slowly, but once there's an opportunity to do something together, hopefully it shall not be wasted, for I do had many experience of feeling regretful, of not doing something together with the person I love the most..

*Will post up my 21st birthday pics soon after I have organized them..*

I love you Dear,
no words could express how much I really love you,
Hope you really know how I feel.
Please take my sadness and loneliness away,
for there are no one else that could, other than you.
Signing off<3

Monday, November 22, 2010

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Time flies!~ it's our anniversary again =D

You showed me what true love is..
 You protected me, and shower me with all your love..
Can we go see more stars when I'm back? 
I Love you Darling!

Din have the time to do something fancy for Dear this anniversary, but of course would never forget our special day =) Though I've been very busy studying for the exams, I've never failed to remember this day. Found these cute cartoon images, and it just says it all.. I miss you Dear =) Happy 11th month anniversary! Time really flies that I just realized its another month of anniversary again. My feelings for Dear have grown so much deeper than ever before.. You've continued giving me your support, encouragement and have kept me going on, motivating me with my studies during the hard times.. Really appreciate it darling and most of all,  I love your patience.. hehe >.<! You hardly rush me into doing something, and also most of the time, you let things go my way.. * oh you know how stubborn I am XD* You're the best babe!  Miss you loads and just couldn't wait to see you again!

In about 1 week + more, I'll be flying back to Brunei again.. Am excited to celebrate my belated 21st birthday with Dear when I'm back.. hehe! *Don't worry Dear, I won't expect any bling bling from you this time right? XD* No pressure, no pressure.. hehe! Sitting for my second last paper tomorrow, Law Bus Org T.T,although it's an open book exam, still very nervous about it.. Hopefully I'll manage to answer finish everything on time! OK studying time!! JYJYJY! It's gonna end very soon! Btw, today is a bloody hot day!! 37 freaking degrees, almost felt like my skin was burning under the sun... Doing yogurt mask now and it felt like the yogurt was melting.. lolx.. Dear says its steaming on my face.. yeah, felt like sauna now.. >=(

Love you Babe~
With all my heart~
*Hope you won't feel bored hearing that like tons of times! =p*
Signing off~

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Congratx Isabella on winning the 1st Junior MasterChef title!

Yesterday was the finale of the junior masterchef, and the dishes that the last 2 contestants, Jack and Isabella, had put up was truly amazing! Adriano Zumbo's dessert really knocked my socks off as well, as it was a really really difficult dessert to plate up, with so many crucial elements that they've got to be aware of. It was one of his signature desserts called Pear perfection, which is choux pastry filled with pear vanilla creme patissiere and a pear jelly disc in the center, covered up with green sable crust which is some crusted topping..and some other stuff.. Looks very good!! I've made choux pastry before and I enjoy making them, though it takes quite some time to make them, it taste absolutely yummy when its filled with creme patissiere. I'm known for someone who loves to try out things that looks great and also tasted great.. so really can't wait to try to make pear perfection after my exam ! =D  

But anyways, gratx to both Jack and Isabella for being the last 2 finalist, though Jack had not won the masterchef title, his creativity in his cooking already makes him a winner. ^^ Really touches my heart seeing the relationship of Sofia and Isabella so close to one another.. and when the judges announced the winners, I was all teared up for joy, so happy for Isabella ! No surprise their future restaurant will sure be a success^^

Just had my first paper today and was a bit disappointed.. Though all the questions were very familiar to me, I've kind of forgotten some of the points which I have memorized. T.T Hopefully its enough to get me a pass and hopefully a credit.. >.< My next paper will be this Wednesday, Acct 260!! Horror!!! Will try to give in my best!! I'm very happy with my internal marks for this unit this semester, so am aiming for a distinction for this unit! ^^ Pray pray ! XD Alrights I'm gonna wash off my yogurt mask and head off to bed...Tiring day and so shall start off my studying first thing in the morning.. ^^ Guys, try out yogurt mask created by bubzbeauty, by just simply putting plain yogurt all over your face.. works amazingly, face feels sooo soft after its washed, and gives a hint of fairness to your complexion.. Works purrffeeccttllyy =D 

Isabella~ the Junior MasterChef winner! ^^
 Signing off~<3

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Finally!! 3rd attempt SUCCESS!

Woo hoo!! My 3rd attempt on macarons was finally a success! so happy that I had finally understood how a macaron mixture consistency is suppose to be like, and this time, no pressure when I was doing it all, well ok I was actually bit nervous and excited at the same time.. but I just tell myself, no worries! this is the time for you to practice! I made a violet colour macarons with vanilla butter icing.. It's my first time tasting macarons, and guess what! It's absolutely divine!! The outside is crispy and the middle is chewy, just like how the masterchef judges described them.. Oh i must say the vanilla butter icing is soooo delicious!! I actually intended to fill  half of the macaroons with blueberry cheese and half of them with vanilla butter icing,but the taste of the vanilla butter icing just got me carried away and so eventually I just end up piping all of them with the vanilla ones.. hehe

Am starting to get all the sugar rush from the macarons, as I was piping the filling on each of them, I just grabbed them and slowly enjoy the texture and the taste of the beautiful macarons.. XD just couldn't wait any longer for all of them to be piped finished.. =D While its baking in the oven, we need to watch out for the timing, coz we won't want the beautiful colour of our macarons to go brown.. and yes! they do go brown quite quickly >.< so I set my temp to 100-120 degree.. I just learned from masterchef that the oven must be preheated to 200 degree, and then once you place the macarons into the oven, off the oven for 10mins.. will try this method when I'm back in Brunei! hehe 

I must say that its a really tricky and difficult dessert to make, as there are so many pressure elements that we've got to look out.. But overall, it was really fun making them, so you macaron lovers out there should try making them yourself! ^^v Thx to Dear for also giving me some tips on what I should be careful of when baking them.. hehe hmm.. now macarons, what next? Macaron tower!! XD 

 hehe! glossy glossy!
need to practice more on piping  round even shape ^^
 whee! out from the oven!
filling them with vanilla icing =D
Hehe I'm so happy! Hope my macarons can put smiles on your faces! XD 

Love dear!
hehe Thnx for buying me A-cash! Im so happy!
Signing off~<3

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

In need of some getaway~

Dear, can we go Hong Kong, Korea & Taiwan after I finish my studies? HEHEHEHEHE !
23 Days to go~=)

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Macarons.. you just amazed me..

Hey guys, haven't been blogging for like a week =D As usual, pretty busy with studying and also am feeling sick at the moment.. sore throat's getting a little bit better, just annoyed with every 30 secs of coughing.. Went to the library to study today... hesitate a while thinking if I should go, coz afraid that my coughing would annoy some students, furthermore, I loved going to the silent zone to study.. But.. yeah I did went in the end.. hehe it was ok.. I didn't cough as much compare to when I was at home.. hehe I guess its the throat that's trying hard to control itself .. HEHE

I finally tried to do macarons today.. OMG! This is really a challenging dessert for me.. As it is my first time making them, struggled a bit, though I had done some research of recipes and techniques, when it comes to the real thing, you'll take back your words for saying " It looks easy! I also can make lor!". Practice makes perfect! That's the key thing that should always be remembered =) First try, I made it with my housemate as she always complains that I never bake with her, or never teach her how to bake.. hehe.. The almond meal is sooo expensive! cost like $10 for 400g.. gosh >.< I failed the first batch of macarons.. Was bit sad actually.. Consistency wasn't right, therefore the mixture didn't form nice circles on its own.. My first thought was, maybe there was too much air in the mixture.. 

Wasn't satisfied with it, so I try again after a while.. made my 2nd batch of the night.. Mixture now seems more glossy and I've knocked out some of the air bubbles in the egg whites.. As compared to my first batch, I hadn't really knock out most of the air.. so I thought the mixture shouldn't be overmix.. so I just gently incorporate the almond meal with the egg whites.. therefore consistency was bit lumpy.. As I piped out my 2nd batch, I noticed consistency wasn't still quite there.. I've just learned my mistake..  Keypoint no.1: Mix quickly when combining the almond meal mixture to the egg white..  Knocking out most of the air.. yet still leaving some on the mixture.. no.2: Must always test a little of the mixture to see if consistency is right,ensuring it forms ribbon-like consistency and blends into the mixture after a few seconds.. Hmm other than that, oh.. best to use piping nozzles when piping out the mixture, unlike what I did, I just cut the tip of the piping bag.. and so that explains the weird shape which I'm getting when its being piped out.. At first when I piped it out, it was like " waoo! so round!" after a while, you can see all the weird shapes coming out le >.< Alright's enough of my experience with macaron for now.. Can't wait to try making them again.. maybe after my exams bah =) 

Dear just quitted his job at the restaurant few days ago.. He's now helping out his Dad with his business.. I thought Dear could relax a bit after that horribly long hours of work at the restaurant.. but apparently, I was wrong.. =( Work for him now seems to be more busier and  is more labour intensive..  Well I just hope things will soon start to go smoother for him.. =) Don't want my Dear so xing ku .. hehe..Shall end here for now =) 

Dear, wait for me,
I will be home very soon<3
Love you! ^^
Won't stop doing what I love..=)
Signing off<3

Sunday, October 31, 2010

GreenTea Lover x3 =D

Today I've made GreenTea Daifuku with Red Bean filling, which is basically GreenTea mochi.. Made from such simple ingredients yet tasted so yummy.. It is my first time making it actually, had some bad experience while forming the mochi balls, as you have to work fast, so that the mochi dough don't dry out, and with plenty of cornstarch, so that they wont stick to your hands.. If they do >.< it'll create a whole lot of mess and basically would be very difficult to remove all of them from your hands.. =D it happens to me and had to spend some time trying to get rid of all of them from my hands as they are super sticky! Should definitely try them out making on your own, its fun to do and also simple as well =) I made the red bean paste myself from scratch by just simply boiling them and then drain it and adding some sugar for sweetness.. However, it was a bit of a let down, as I had not cooked the red bean a little longer.. So there were still some uncooked red beans.. Will try them out again soon =D As for now, just enjoy some pics of the lovely GreenTea and red bean Daifuku ^^

Last but not least, the moment of truth!
Hehe.. soft soft!

K that's it for today.. will try out more recipes and show them to you guys soon =D

Signing off<3

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Baking a day keeps all frowns away =)

Well to me that is =).. took a break off a while from studying and got myself into baking..  Wasn't in the mood this early morning, but am feeling better now..  Mum says I shouldn't bake whenever I'm feeling down or not in the mood, coz usually my cakes won't turn out so well.. hmm yeah she is right at times, it would either be forgetting to watch out for my cakes before they get over baked, or either I'll accidentally left out an ingredient and not concentrating much to the recipe.. but today I just felt like baking something.. 

Finally gotten the cupcake recipe from my friend..  Am really excited to try out the recipe coz my friend has bake them so lovely and heavenly.. It was moist and fluffy.. reminds me of the cupcake I used to eat from Gardenier when I was young.. butter cupcake.. oh so heavenly.. I'm not really a cupcake making fan, coz so far I haven't really mastered the skill of baking them.. but practice makes perfect and am going to try practicing more when I'm back to Brunei.. Dad has got the kitchen renovating this week.. Can't wait to try out the new ovens which he had promised to get them for me =) Love you Dad.

I'll just let the pictures do the talking.. =) Just wished I had a Samsung t550 to make my pictures look more beautiful .. HEHEHE..

Green tea cupcake.. Result was not quite satisfied.. but am going to accept it for now.. It was quite dense, but still soft and wasn't too sweet as I had reduced the sugar.. Greentea is my favourite =)

Pan fried salmon teriyaki  =)

 Corn soup ^^
Housemate was sick, so I cooked her porridge.. ^^ What's in it? There is shitake mushrooms, carrots, chicken, chilli radish, ginger..and lots of LOVE LOVE!  ^^
Cooked tom yam tang hoon(glass noodle) last 2 days.. Was meant to be bee hoon but bought the wrong one.. ehehe.. What's in it? There is spring onions,shitake mushrooms, chicken, carrots, cabbage, tom yam paste and spicy spam.. hehe 

 Studying studying.. time to study.. Was in the library when I took this.. Had my lemon water by my side and some weetbix.. ^^ Really miss studying in the library.. Can't wait to go back this Monday.. am gonna JYJYJY! 

Alrights time to shower and study ! 

Love you dear,
Signing off~<3

It's just all about giving in..

You won't really feel happy whenever you force someone into doing something that they don't like, or they just don't feel like doing it...  Well at first, yea u might get upset coz you din get what u wanted.. but after a while, you would realized that , their reason seems to be more important to them and also you'll understand and accept the reason beneath it.. and so you start to think things positively and tries to mend things back together, so you took that step into telling him that, yeah its ok if i don't get what i wanted, I'll wait next time.. and then you start to think that, what you actually wanted is to both agree on doing things willingly together and not by force.. So you forgive him and put your feelings aside.. What really hurts the most now is, it wasn't not being able to do what you actually wanted, is the reply you got saying, " ok you just do what you want".. Couldn't feel any appreciation much coming from those words.. and it hurts a lot.. 

Probably he didn't really understand what you actually meant, but I guess you don't have to say much to explain to him.. As long as you know that you  are doing the right thing... and also hoping that he'll understand what you have done for him..
Signing off~<3

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Taking 5mins break! =D

How do I get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be
Oh I, I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
You're my world, my heart, my soul

If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life
And tell me now

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
Oh, how do I live

Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There'd be no world left for me
And I, oh Baby, I don't know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lost you

If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in my life
And tell me now

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
Oh, how do I live

Please tell me baby
How do I go on

If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know that you're everything good in my life
And tell me now

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
Oh, how do I live

how do I live without you
how do I live without you baby
how do I live.... 


Miss you baby ~
Hope to see your smile each day =)
Love you Darling <3
Muackx! ^^

Monday, October 25, 2010

Woo hoo! Goodbye assignments!

Finally completed my last assignment today! It's been a long time since I've last stayed awake for 24hrs ! Accounting 260 sux sux sux!!! I thought that I would be able to finish it before midnight, but then end up doing it till 5+am! was basically nodding my head at around 3am, hadn't stop looking at my computer screen since like 9+am yesterday! Am actually quite happy with  the preparation made on this assignment  =D, have been actually studying for weeks just coz of the assignment.. gotten some help from my friends as well, if it weren't for them, I don't think I'll be able to get the assignment done on time =D Hopefully results for it will be better than I had expected ^^

After taking a shower at around 6am, dried my hair and then took my breakfast.. Had not had any dinner yesterday and barely moved out of my seat.. was too engrossed in my assignment that time just passed by so quickly.. and so tummy wasn't feeling well at all.. after that around 7 + I laid down and suddenly fell asleep.. bad bad bad bad idea to lie down on your bed 2hrs before assignment submission time!!!!! and without alarm some more!!!! I think God hit me hard on the head at around 8am ! submission time was 9am!! No doubt that I would continue on sleeping for hours, coz  haven't been sleeping enough for the passed few days.. but yeah thankx God for waking me up XD... woke up in a rush and then I erm..umm actually vomited out what I had for breakfast >.< I know its pretty disgusting T.T Don't worry sis, its not on your room carpet =D.. Vomit at the sink ok! >.<! Probably there was too much air in my tummy + the lack of sleep I'm getting, and so yeah wasn't feeling well at all.. then rush to Uni and was very surprise to see that all the parking lots were full!! at 8am ++!! gosh all the students must have started studying already! I started mine 2 days ago.. and missed out like 1 day coz of this assignment.. Had to study a chap a day, so that I could finish everything on time ^^.. well  have planned everything quite well already, so just gotta try my best to follow them only =)

Continuing on with my bad experience today.. After I parked my car, tummy started to ache pretty badly.. it was 30mins till submission time, was thinking whether I should do business or not.. and then thoughts came to my head and says " no don't do it now! U haven't print the freaking assignment!! print it, submit it, then do your business!!!" and so yeah I tahan for 30mins.. felt like fainting lolx.. Accounting students started crowding the office, eagerly to submit their assignments..  Felt bit scared as I was about to submit mine in >.<!  I normally would hesitate a while, thinking whether or not I've done enough, checking if everything was OK and in place.. but yeah just submit it!!

Well everything felt such a relieved knowing that all my assignments were completed..  1 semester just flew by so fast.. Wasn't looking forward at all during that time when I came back for the start of the new sem.. But yea see!! It's going to be over very soon! So for now, just make full use of the time I've got into studying for the exam.. =)

Rewarded myself with McDonald's breakkie! =D Sausage and Egg Muffin! Yummy~!! hehe and orange juice! Gonna take few hours nap later then start studying for my last lab test this Thursday! ^^ Weeks have been pretty hectic with assignments due date + mid sem test date so close to each other.. Don't worry! Be Happy!! Everything will be over pretty soon ! =D Alright just gonna end here for now.. Apologies for my bad English today... Had not slept for 24hrs, so head's really spinning around and couldn't concentrate on what I'm actually typing.. hehe shall correct them later when I'm fully reenergized!

Enjoy! ^^ 

Signing off~<3